Surrender to Grace

October 13th, 2011 Posted in Gratitude Journal, Life Lessons, Note To Self, Project 365, Quote for the Day
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The word for today was surrender.

Earlier in the day as I was driving to the clinic after my lunch meeting, I was thinking that maybe giving up was the right word. Giving up on the hopes of a job I wasn’t sure of, giving up my Parisian wishes, giving up on the research I really, really don’t wanna do, giving up on the Philippines and just packing up and finally going abroad, giving up on the familiar comforts of home….just giving up.

Then during yoga class (yes, once again the Universe sends me an answer while I’m in yoga class), it dawned on me that giving up isn’t an option. Never was, never will be.

Surrender, however, is.

I guess that’s why people call it “sweet surrender”, right? Because somehow despite the discomfort, uncertainty, and even pain that surrendering may bring, there is indeed something sweet somewhere ’round the corner. It reminded me of something I said last night to one of my oldest and dearest friends…I said sometimes it’s best to just sit there and surrender to the reality of things, not blindly accepting it in defeat, but knowing that by surrendering, things may just begin to become more clear. I went on to tell her too that it doesn’t mean being a passive audience in the things that unfold, but being open enough to allow yourself to accommodate and adapt to what is. After all, that’s what life is all about in the end…survival of the fittest. And I have come to realize that the fittest is not necessarily the one who fights longest or has the best arsenal, but is the one who can finally take a step back and say “I’m tired”  or “I need to take pause”. They’re the one’s too who are wise enough to know when to move forward, when to take a step back or when to stay in place.

And so I will surrender…not give up, but surrender the struggle, surrender the pressure, surrender the pain and open up to grace.

Tonight I am grateful

♥ for progress that comes in baby steps in my asanas…just a few more breaths away from that headstand I tell ya, just a few more

♥ to have been honest enough with myself to give in to my present emotion, even though it meant opening up and allowing myself to be vulnerable

♥ to still want things, to feel pleasure and be able to smile despite hurt, anxiety and stress

♥ to still believe in dreams, no matter how jaded or disappointed I have become. yes, I am not giving up on them. I am just surrendering to what may be.

♥  to be able to say I surrender.

gnyt.

184/365

 

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Is Giving Up an Option?

July 22nd, 2011 Posted in Note To Self, Quote for the Day
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I had posted in my Facebook wall earlier that I so wish giving up was an option, even just for today. Sigh. I’m so tired already.

But as my friend said, talk to me Meredith Grey, and so I was reminded of this:

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Crossing the Line and Hangovers You DON’T Wanna Have

June 11th, 2011 Posted in Movie Reviews, Quote for the Day, The Big Screen
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The other night I found myself face to face with a line I know better than to cross….but but but….the temptation to cross it…OH MY GOSH! That’s all I can say. Haha.

So…this line, as Derek asked Meredith in the show…is it imaginary or do I need a magic marker to draw it? GAAAH!!! Teeheehee. Talk about random thought bubbles.

Besides the quote from Grey’s Anatomy in the photo, the whole thing kinda reminded me of the movie I watched about a week ago. Remember the movie Hangover? Well..that was a line that was crossed, too, right? And at the end of it, all was good :)

Lemme back track a bit. The first installment of Hangover took viewers to a bachelor party gone all wrong as Doug (Justin Bartha) and his friends Phil (Bradley Cooper), Stu (Ed Helms), and Alan (Zach Galifianakis) set off to Las Vegas to celebrate Doug’s upcoming nuptials. What transpired next was a comedy of errors that left the Wolfpack in so much trouble.

This year, Warner Bros. Pictures got pack together again, this time to celebrate Stu’s wedding. However, with the memories of that night in Vegas still fresh in Stu’s mind, he opted for a more quiet, tame and “safe” bachelor breakfast before heading off to a beach getaway in Thailand where he was set to marry his girl. But but but…despite all careful control, Stu conceded to throw caution to the wind and have one beer to toast his last few nights as a bachelor. The next thing they knew, it was a hangover all over again.

Funny, funny film, I tell ya. And yes, that was a line that was a wee bit too dangerous to cross but in the end, it was a spectacular celebration.

It was a SUPER DIDOOPER laugh trip, even though that kind of comedy has never been a favorite of mine. But, yeah, it was fun to see the characters from the first flick back together on screen. Plus Bradley Cooper is…sigh :) teeheehee…

The film opened June 8, 2010. It’s a perfect lazy weekend movie to catch :) Some of the guys I watched it with, though, felt a little bit, errr….overexposed with the film haha. Hangover 2 is STRICTLY rated R and so don’t even think of bringing your younger kids/siblings to the movie with you.

Now…as for my line…I think I know better than to cross it…. :) That’s prolly one hangover I don’t wanna get face again…I think. But but but…what if the view is spectacular there??? GAAAH!!! Keeeelmenow.

Now, one too many pink fuzzy yummy mugs of happiness from my favorite place is a whole other story, even if it hurts haha.  Bow.

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A Good Start

May 28th, 2011 Posted in Gratitude Journal, Life Lessons, Project 365, Random Thoughts
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Today’s random thought bubble is inspired by yet another Grey’s Anatomy quote and the song that came along with it.

Earlier this morning (well, the whole of yesterday I must say and a bit of this morning) I was wallowing in feelings of anxiety because of bad things that happened yesterday which tapped into old wounds. This topped off a stressful past two and a half weeks so I was finding myself in shifting sands.

However, I was chatting with a dear, dear friend throughout the day and I was reminded of one thing that I have been working on: letting go of the past. Yes, I tend to hold on too tightly to the familiar and I forget that change can be a good thing.When change happens, I feel lost and when what is familiar evolves, even if for the better, I get anxious.

And so tonight’s reminder goes:

Make each day count, Ri. Remember the past but don’t hold on too tightly :)

And so as I end the day, tonight I am grateful

♥ for lots of fun random thoughts

♥ to be proven wrong every once in a while

♥ that I was able to finish pending work!!! yey

♥ for time back on the mat

♥ to know that I can make so much history on a daily basis…and all of this is essential for growth.

46/365

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