The other day in yoga class, one of my classmates said, wow, you’re really shrinking! That made me feel really good because I see these people on an almost daily basis and for her to notice means it must be getting significant! After all, we don’t usually notice these changes when we are with the same people too often, right? I can recall a time when I had to shop for my graduation dress in the maternity section because there were no stores that would offer clothes that fit me. Plus size apparel back then was not so mainstream and whatever little there were was never quite attractive. Now, however, it is more accessible. In fact, one can even get plus size wedding dresses and other gowns for special events that are just as stylish and beautiful as the one’s for typical people. That marks great progress, I think Teehee. While I am glad I can get clothes from mainstream stores now, I’m really glad that there are more options for people like me who struggle with weight issues.
I realized that it has been about six months now since my life changed completely. For a while, I thought I had gotten to know the lay of the land but then all of a sudden, the tides shifted and well, I found myself face down in the ground and lost and confused. It took quite some time for me to shake off the dust and get back on track. Although things started settling around February, I must admit there are still days when those old wounds resurface. Last night, in fact, I was just thinking about how even though I am getting used to the new direction of my life, there are days when I still miss and long for the old one I knew. I guess that isn’t really a bad thing, but I know that forming attachments to those memories is not good as well.
Anyway, in the spirit of letting go of those attachments, I have decided to do some spring cleaning. I do know the usual way is to clean up the physical space first before the emotional clutter, but I guess the latter came first for me. Haha. Since I have been dealing with the emotional spring cleaning quite a bit, I will now do the physical. I started with discarding some of my old clothes, selling off some not-so-important stuff in my collection, and yeah, even sorting through all my mothers rings and necklaces and other beaded jewelry we used to collect and make. I threw out too all the old make up that’s kinda not so useful anymore.
Hopefully now that I have done the cleaning, Summer can really come.
Today’s random question…
So, what’s your favorite place? For me, next to the yoga studio, I love, love, love the toy store. I particularly like the non-typical toy store. I like those stores that sell puzzles, construction toys and those DIY wooden models (like lindberg models or castles and the like). It makes me feel like a child again, and yet an adult still. If I were in a typical toy store, such as Toys R’Us or Toy Kingdom, I look for sections that have those toys too. The plushies are cute and all, but I feel they don’t harness one’s imagination to much.
Next to a toy store, I’d probably say I like hardware places too teehee.
What about you???
This past week taught me to believe even more in dreams. But not just that, to just keep dreaming new dreams. I never was really good at that, believing that is, but circumstance has made me think otherwise.
I may have had to let go of some stuff to pave the way for bigger dreams, but at the end of the day, I know all this has a purpose.
Here’s to new dreams.
Today’s random snapshot…
Saw this at one of my new favorite restaurants in the city and it reminded me that despite everything I have been through lately, something good always happens.
Since I have gotten back into my art, I have been exploring alternative art materials. I have always said I am the painter who does not paint on canvass or paper after all. I like painting on glass, on walls, on wood…
When it comes to getting my art supplies, I love going to strange places as well. Hehe. Well, maybe they aren’t really strange but they aren’t really where you’d go for art supplies. One place I love is the hardware. I prefer the acrylic wall paints they have over the acrylic artist paint for two reasons: its already premixed and its much cheaper! Har. I also like looking at medical equipment and supply shops. I like using test tubes and those IV tubes. I used syringes and even sponges as well!
I have not, however, gone off to the deep edge and used um, yucky stuff like body fluids and wastes (I saw this on TV once!!!) or even unconventional body parts for my art!
It’s been a long time since I’ve gotten my hands dirty, with paint and glue and stuff that is. I miss the artist side in me and I miss the joy Project Sunshine brought me before. I miss the endless hours I spent I’d spend hours pounding on the garage floor tiles to make small pieces for my mosaics. Doing my mosaics, wall mural and eventually painting my doorway allowed me to get in touch with my soul and really brought me peace that was unmeasurable. But as always, life happens and I got sooooo busy so my art exploration stalled. However, I have recently been invited to do a mural on a wall and I eagerly said yes to the project. I am soooo excited! And so yeah, project mode on! Watch out for the finished project